Finished my first 10k yesterday!
I feel wildly accomplished.
Despite having four 5ks under my belt, and one 10k, I find it hard to associate “being a runner”. I have this weird sense that being a runner is part of an elite club of people who watch their diet, have expensive gear and keep spreadsheets of their performance. I didn’t associate being one until a friend ofine said “well, you’re a runner,” as part of normal conversation. That stopped me in my tracks. I felt the sentence almost form right after that, “I’m not a runner!” but I stopped myself.
Yes, I am a runner. I am starting to geek out over personal records, running gear and cross training. I am being careful with my meals because all the extra baggage won’t help my speed.
What I learned: it truly is a mental sport. If you are lucky enough, you train with a buddy, but for the most part you train on your own. You are only as fast as your body can take you. And even if your body can make it, if your head isn’t in the game, you won’t get to the finish line. Solo runs place you inside your head: with music, podcasts, news. Your body becomes a machine. You hear your heart thump like an engine, hear your lungs take in breath to fuel your heart and feed your blood stream.
It is (fairly) cheap: your only investment is a decent pair of running shoes. Granted once you do this often enough, your tastes begin to differ (I have caught myself looking at the difference between one tread to another, and testing shoe weights).
It is a lonely sport, and can be easily boring if you run begrudgingly as part of a weightloss regime. If this is just cardio for you, then put in thirty minutes and you’re done. I am still running because I am exercising my mind to get over the whining over pain: shut up and run. It is a test of strength and endurance. How far can I take this?
I went to my 10k on my own. I don’t have running friends to go and the 5am start time was too early for anyone. I asked a friendly stranger to take my finish line photo. My sister picked me up and we had breakfast on the way home. To many, yesterday was just another Sunday.
To me, yesterday was a milestone.
I am a runner.